I was so not looking forward to my 14th birthday.
Worrying about so many things. Crying over so many things. Having sleepless nights about so many things. Envy and jealous about so many things. The same few things though.
And then came my birthday. and I must say, it was one of the best I ever had.
All the things that Yihui and the rest did. The silly girl went around collecting money from people and when I asked her, she told me it was for this donation program her mum was doing. Guess what, I believed and 'donated' too. Hahah. who knew, she went to buy loads of present. And it was all so pretty! I got back the money I 'donated', of course.
Hweizee and gang(yinhuan and all) got me a box full of various chocolates. She made the box herself, it was a pretty box with my name in 2D on it. (: That artistic soul of hers!
And then present from Kharenee! I use it as my toiletry case now (: and I still have the shirt in my wardrobe! And the present from WeeKii and her sis. the cute handphone holder which I use occasionally.
Oh! and the cute monkey soft toy from Juin! It's on my bed. the only other soft toy I put on my bed besides the one from my sis.
And the present from my sis. I remember, that year, she was staying in her college's hostel. (and it contributed to my theory that that year was going to be a sucky one) But she still got me a present and wished me at 12 am sharp (:
and then there were loads more present and wishes.
And this one, I can't remember it at all but I read it from my diary. Cousin Marcus called and Dave and Jackie were there too. And apparently, I answered the phone and they started singing a Happy Birthday song. haha. and then we talked. I only remember the birthday song part now. I remember being so confused after they sang. Then, I finally found out it was them. haha.
Gosh, how I miss being 14.
Though I can't believe how naive, emo, silly, envious, jealous, stupid, and lonely I was. Silly isn't it?
And then all that got me thinking, just how much I've drifted apart from almost every one of these people. I'm such a terrible person at keeping a friendship going. I havent' even spoken to Dave and Jackie in years!
In the diary, I wrote that I made a promise to Jackie about being optimistic. And I plan on at least making an effort to keep to it again.
Burning on just like a match you strike to incinerate
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
-Helena by My Chemical Romance
The lives of everyone you know
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
What's the worst that I can say?
Things are better if I stay
So long and goodnight
So long and goodnight
Came a time
When every star fall brought you to tears again
We are the very hurt you sold
And what's the worst you take (worst you take)
From every heart you break (heart you break)
And like the blade you stain (blade you stain)
Well I've been holding on tonight
-Helena by My Chemical Romance
No, I'm not being emo already.
